December 14, 2004

i'm getting pretty good at this

so, i'm getting pretty good at blogging once a month at nearly the exact same time. right now, i'm multitasking with my japanese oral exam prep, chatting with my sister online, and writing this. let's see how much later i'm going to bed after finishing all three of these tasks.

anywho, it's december. the 14th to be exact. classes finished yesterday, and finals begin on thursday. i don't have a final until saturday, but until then, i have tons and tons of work to do. a 10-page paper is due next monday by noon, and i have a number of assignments to complete for japanese class. this week is not going to be pretty.

other than that, the semester is over, and i'll be home in 8 days. i'm really excited to get out of here and back to the islands where i can relax and forget about all the things i do here in boston.

....random interjection: lori is going to sleep, so we can take the second thing off that list.

the end of the semester is always a rough time for me. i'm exhausted after going on and on for nearly 11 months straight, and i always look forward to december because the holidays are here, and i go home and celebrate them with the family. i'm not looking to be social at all because i do need "me" time to just veg out and reflect on all the things i've done over the year. and it's also the time of year that steve and i get into a fight. we've managed to do that for the past three years now (excluding freshmen year), and it never ends on a good note. most of that is probably my fault, but i can't keep my guard up all year round; i need a break, and december is a good time for it.

december is the one month of the year that i get to be a little selfish and think about myself for once. i don't think i'm selfish during the rest of the year, but if i am, please let me know. and that's the way i am. a lot of people (i can't say everyone) are thinking about themselves during this time of the year, and i like it that way. i'm not saying that i stop thinking about everyone else, but i do start thinking more about myself and what i want to do when i go home. the holidays often get me thinking about my family and friends back home who i haven't seen in a year. i'm also thinking about presents for my friends here that i will bring back in january. it's just that i put myself first this month and hope that steve will be a little more flexible. but, it doesn't work that way. it never works that way. most of the time, steve's frustrated with me because he thinks that i'm running myself into the ground. and i probably am. but i wouldn't want it any other way.

i like december as my "chill out" month. it's a good time. and if everyone is being self-centered for the rest of the year, i can definitely take one month to myself. and that's what i'm going to do. and i hope that my boyfriend will take notice and cater to me a little more. but i'm not going to ask for that because that's ridiculous; he should know me by now, and he should be aware of my moods. and i should be more open to share these moods with him, since they come around once a year.

....random interjection #2: japanese oral exam prep is done....two things down, just one to go!

anywho, that's my rant for tonight. i'd write more, but i really should get to sleep. i'm just a difficult person to get along with, but if you figure it out, you're in for a really good time.

i'm going home in 8 days....

-me : )

November 12, 2004

i'll be gone 'til november

so....it's been exactly one month since i've written anything here. oops. i should be better at this because it may be the one way i will stay sane until winter break.

ah, let's see....what's happened in the last month? (checking last blog) okay, i'm back. i guess i left off at the "beginning-of-the-semester" party, and brute squad was going to nationals, and the red sox were still in the alcs. i'll go through those simple things because it'll be easy to recall. first, the red sox won the alcs by winning four straight to upset the yankees. then they went on to sweep the st. louis cardinals, 4-0, to win its first world championship since 1918. no joke. it was amazing. however, i was in sarasota watching game four of the world series instead of in boston celebrating like the crazy boston people do. hooray.

segue into the next topic....yes, i was in florida when the red sox won the world series. brute squad was settling in for the night to get ready for the first day of nationals. we, what i like to call it, pulled a "red sox" over the three days we were there. we went 0-3 on day 1, with losses to prime (world champs), backhoe (not-so-pleasant women from nc), and zanzara (our new friends from texas). it was a tough day because we not only lost those three games, but we lost erin to a torn mcl as well. boo. the second and third day had us playing for the 9-16 spots. on friday, we went 2-0 against electric mayhem (ny/nj) and nemesis (chicago). that was a good day. we cleaned up our game a whole heap and played better ultimate....yups, that simple. with two wins on friday, we were guaranteed to finish no higher than 9th and no lower than 12th. and we made it our mission to work for that 9th place finish. saturday was crazy, now that i'm thinking about it. we played two games. yups, two. and it felt like we played three or four. seriously. our first game was one of the two "semis" (games to go to the 9/10 game), and we were matched up against bnogo (dc). we've played them four times this season, and, at that time, we were 2-2. so, we knew this was going to be a dogfight. unless we gave it away like we did on thursday. we had a few slipups in the beginning, and we were slow to come out of the gates. they took half 8-6 or something like that and we knew that it was now or never. the game proceeded as it did in the first half, and we were unable to get the breaks we needed. and we played really long points. so, as it happened all tournament, our game was capped. bnogo was up 12-11; game to 14. i think we got the disc after they scored to go ahead, and unfortunately, we turned it over and they scored....again. so, it's 13-11, game point for bnogo, and brute squad with their backs against the wall. nothing unfamiliar for us (we practiced a lot of come-from-behind scenarios during practices), and we managed to play patient brute ultimate, and scored the next point. 13-12, game point still to bnogo. and they were receiving the disc this time. lots of pressure on the defense to play solid and clean. once again, the team stepped up to the challenge, played superb defense, and got a turnover with a score. 13-13. universe point. double-game point. whatever you want to call it. the sidelines were getting crazy (and by sidelines i meant the brute boyz were dancing and cheering all over the place), the seven of us on the line (me, rebecca, kathy, chrissy, atong, nancy, and alison) could taste it. bnogo was on their line freaking out. and we were just waiting to pounce on them.

so the pull begins this last point of the game. the brutes are on defense, and boy, were we on defense. we played tight man-d the entire point, and we could see how much we were wearing bnogo down. early in the point, we were causing turnovers on our half of the field. but as the point continued, we pushed them back into their half and caused a lot of turnovers. initially, we had a few easy chances to score, but because i got a little excited, i threw a couple away. but, as dan said from the sidelines, "we're winning brutes, we're winnning. you don't know that yet, but we are." we had their backs to their end lines for the last 10 minutes (or however long that was) of the point. yes, we'd turn the disc over, but they would turn it over in the next two passes. everyone stepped up her defense, and made it really difficult for bnogo to get their throws off. kathy had a great mark on her offensive player, and that made it a lot easier for us to match up on our women. i'm not sure who threw the last point (i think it might have been chrissy or nancy), but rebecca caught it in the back of our endzone for the game-winning point. it was amazing. and only our first game of the day. we still had to play safari, the ucsd club team, for 9th place. honestly, i was exhausted after that game. i really didn't want to play anymore. but we had come so far, that it was time to finish it off. short summary of the game: we won. brutes finish 9th, and it's time for us to party!

we spent the rest of the weekend hanging out and enjoying the wonderful sarasota weather. we also watched the men's and women's finals. sockeye beat jam, and riot beat prime. hooray for the end of another club season with brute squad. it was definitely a more stressful season for me, with the stresses of college ultimate lurking every other moment i was not practicing with the brutes, but it was really a struggle to get myself motivated to practice. my body was pooped. and it is really pooped now. but a couple of months should do it, and i will be ready to run my butt off when we start track practices in january.

so, i've finished the october recap. hooray. oh, i did forget to mention that i did no such homework during the month of october due to the red sox. i blame them. just kidding.

anywho, it's november now. the 12th to be exact. and it snowed today. i'm serious. winter is officially more than a month away, and we had snow today. it was pretty....until it turned into frozen rain. then it wasn't so pretty. i think i just bombed my second latin exam, and i've got a presentation to work on for monday (japanese literature). there's lots of work to do, and i've got to get my ass in gear to get shit done. word.

this weekend should do it, though. no ultimate frisbee tournament or practice, and i have lots of time to get my work done. i'm shooting a package tomorrow for newsroom on tuesday; then i'll probably spend the rest of the afternoon cleaning my room and the apartment. at night, i'll probably get to my homework and some movie-watching, and then on sunday, i'll go to the souvenir store and put a few hours in, play some floor hockey (playoffs!), compete in a poker tournament, and then finish the night off with more homework. i better be productive this weekend.

....and breathe. that's what i've been up to in the last month. exciting, eh? but i did forget to mention that my computer died about three weeks ago (freakin' motherboard got the best of my 'puter), so i'm waiting for my brand-new dell inspiron to arrive....next week thursday. honestly, these past three weeks have been the most frustrating three weeks of my life. i'm not kidding. not having a computer has made it more difficult to get anything done without having to walk to campus to work on a computer in a computer lab. gah. but, it'll be here soon enough; i'm not worried. remember this date: november 18. my computer will finally be here. hooray!

okay, i've written way too much for tonight. it's been 42 minutes since i started, and my fingers are really cold.

yay for a not-busy weekend.

-me : )

October 13, 2004

it's the middle of october....geez

october 13 is here. wow. well, i haven't blogged in a while, and since i don't feel like doing homework just yet, i guess it's time to elaborate on all the things i said i'd write more a few months ago. where exactly do i begin, though?

ah yes, just checked my last blog from three weeks ago....so, what have i been up to since then? well, i'm still in school working my butt off, i'm still playing ultimate (wouldn't give that up for the world at this point), i go to reebok every thursday, and i'm still working on finding time to work this semester. i did go in yesterday (columbus day) for eight hours....yay for time-and-a-half. the red sox are in the alcs this week, and they return home for games three through five on friday. tonight, they played the yankees in the bronx and lost 10-7. it could have been worse, though, and their near-comeback makes me excited for game two at 8 p.m.....tonight. hee hee, that's funny, because it is wednesday already. other than the random appearance at work, things have been the same since i last wrote.

the latest, though: brute squad is going to nationals again! regionals took place this past weekend, and brute squad finished second to lady godiva. it was an amazing weekend with awesome ultimate, gorgeous fall weather, and lots of support from teammates and friends. nationals will be in sarasota, florida from october 28-31....and this time, i'm 21! we have two and a half more weeks to get ready for another opportunity to make a statement at nationals, and i think our team is much stronger this time around. exciting!

more of the latest: lori's at redlands this fall for her first semester of college, and she's playing volleyball. i haven't heard from her in a while, but at least it keeps her mind off of missing her boyfriend back home. i know that home is awesome and all, but seriously, if you don't make the most of your time away from home, you really won't appreciate all of it when you return for those winter and summer vacations. that's my random rant for the day.

another update (i guess i do have a lot to share): my dad and grandma are coming to boston in may for my graduation! the hotel rooms are booked (on my credit card), and they will be here from may 19-24, 2005. on the way home, we're going to las vegas for a couple of days, and then we'll be home just in time to see brad graduate from kamehameha. i don't plan to be home for good, so the job search begins as soon as i figure out what i want to do with my life after graduation....which should be soon. yeah, i'm graduating again....from college this time. geez.

i guess i should get to the gossipy-type stuff, since i've managed to stay away from blogging about it for a while now....besides school, ultimate, and the reebok internship, i manage to have a relationship. wow, does that sound so....unexciting. but it is. steve and i are still together, and it's still a work-in-progress. i don't mean that in a bad way; i'm just saying that things can be better between us, and we're working at it. i've realized why we're still together, and how important he is to me, and i'm trying to work on the little things that may not be as helpful to the relationship as they should be. in turn, though, i'm also trying to make him figure out the little things that he needs to improve on in our relationship as well. this time around has been a two-way relationship, rather than a one-way relationship (as it was in the past). i think things are good, and i hope that he agrees. we're there for each other when things get tough, and i know that being able to talk with him really makes my day. for me, it's all about the little things.

okay, so i've been multitasking since i started to blog, so i think i'm going to cut it here. i know i wanted to write about one more thing....oh, wait, here it is:

the ozone pilots had its first gathering on sunday evening after regionals. we had a really nice turnout for a three-day weekend, with a good number of veterans, returnees, and members of slow white. i teamed up with lindsey for beirut/beer pong (not sure which term to use here), and we lost to teddy and jake (slow white member/roger williams folk) by two cups. many of our rookies came to this gathering and phil and adrienne were in charge of discovering the gossip behind our newbies. after all was said and done, adrienne had a body pillow covering herself, and a few of the guys and girls swapped clothing. i did not partake in any of these festivities, but i was part of the contingent that took piper out for her 21st birthday. erin hyde and sean laing blessed us with their presence, and we managed to get to two bars before closing on sunday night. steve and i stayed with the group until they went to our house, and we attempted to return to hang out with the gang until we discovered that the party had been busted because of noise. thank goodness jasper and magnusson didn't get arrested again. so, we ran into the under-21 crowd in front of natalie's pizza in allston and walked back to campus with most of them. we arrived at adrienne's to hang out for a bit, but that didn't work as well as we thought, so it was time to call it a night. i'm really sorry that i didn't get to hang out with the gang more, but until i return from nationals, hanging out will be at a minimum.

okay, i think that's it for now. time for me to get back to....school stuff mixed with ultimate stuff.

go red sox, go!

-me : )

September 23, 2004

senior year is in full swing!

well, well, it's been over three weeks since i last blogged, and that's probably a result of me being super busy. september 1-6 brought on orientation session 8/orientation for international students/parents' convocation/matriculation/splash; september 7 was the first day of classes....and it's been all downhill since then. i've managed to stay on top of things with school, but it's pretty crazy with japanese, latin, and broadcast classes keeping my schedule lively and hectic.

besides being in school, i'm still playing with brute squad, and bu ultimate started up last week. from september 10-12, i was in chicago playing at the heavyweight tournament; brute squad finished second to bnogo. then i came back to boston to start up ozone pilots ultimate: we've had four practices since last tuesday, and the lady pilots are playing at yale's coffee cup on sunday. this past sunday, brute squad competed in club sectionals, where we came in second to lady godiva. it wasn't a close game, but we didn't bring our best to the field. i know we can do it; i feel it. brute squad has three practices a week (thursday nights, saturday and sunday mornings), and the ozone pilots practice three times a week as well (monday, wednesday, and friday afternoons). it's been a little overwhelming for me, and i'm not sure if i'll be able to make it through the next couple of weeks. regionals will take place on october 10-11 at devens, and we hope to qualify for nationals again this year. go brutes!

so, as i mentioned before (i think), i'm not working at orientation this year. i got an advertising internship with reebok (thanks to nick fisher), and today is my first day. i'm actually at reebok right now, in between a mini-project and lunch with kree. i attempted to create a tagline for a holiday print ad....we'll see if that flies. i have my own cubicle (with decorations to come), complete with a computer, telephone, and shelves. i've already been in a meeting this morning, and i will be in one later this afternoon; so far, things aren't dull here. my supervisor isn't in today, so i'm just doing any work that anyone needs to do, and wandering around the building. i should mention that i'm at reebok headquarters in canton, ma, which is 30 minutes south of boston. yes, i don't have a car, but i do have friends who work at reebok, so that makes this internship possible. i am carpooling with kree to and from reebok every thursday, so i'm really excited. she is an awesome and inspirational person, and i hope to one day be as awesome as her.

i guess that wraps up what i am doing this semester. work should fit in there at some point, but i'm not quite sure where. we'll see how that goes. anywho, it's time for me to meet kree, so i'll end it here. hooray for lunch!

autumn is here.

-me : )

August 31, 2004

back to the student village

well, i'm back in the student village for the last year of my undergraduate education. it's nice to finally unpack and make my room home. steve's parents drove the van down on sunday night so we could transport my stuff and make moving that much easier. it was really nice of them, and i enjoyed having an automobile to make one trip to the fuller building parking lot instead of five long walks with a cart full of stuff.

we started cleaning and packing on saturday night after we got home from day one of chowdafest. by the way, slow white and the seven dwarves (steve's mixed club team for the fall....i'll post pictures from the weekend soon enough) came in second....without steve playing. he sprained his pcl (posterior crucial ligament, or something like that) in the last game of summer league last weekend, and is out for a bit. okay, so we started cleaning and packing things up on saturday night because theresa was coming to the apartment on sunday to set up her apartment for the fall. when we returned on sunday night, steve's parents drove the van down to boston and we started loading the van with all of my stuff. fun times. lots of trips down and up the four flights of stairs. but we got 90% of the stuff packed on sunday night, not to mention we did laundry and all that fun stuff.

monday was moving day, and we were officially out of 6 buswell at 9:50 a.m. the best time ever. although we did start moving around 7:45 that morning. we had the van loaded at 9:30, drove it over to the fuller building parking lot, loaded our stuff into carts, watched the moving people load my carts into a moving bin, and returned home to take out the trash and check me out of south. the driving, unloading, and checking out took 20 minutes. i was in shock. and very glad that we started moving early. we then proceeded to find a parking spot near 10 buick so we could unload and unpack the carts. we lucked out, and check-in for 10 buick was nice and happy. hooray.

steve scheduled an academic advising meeting at 11, so we walked down to campus for his appointment, and then caught the t out to perd for rehab. i had rehab for my i-t band (stupid tendonitis) and steve did exercises for his pcl. we had dunkin' donuts for lunch, and he drove me to work. while i worked, steve moved out of 41 ashford and was so awesome to unpack the carts we left in the apartment and set up my bed and my bedroom. anywho, we finished unpacking when i returned, and then unloaded his stuff into my apartment for storage. he went home around 6:45, and i met up with simon to do some grocery shopping at shaw's.

at shaw's simon wouldn't let me buy junk food (but that's okay, i guess), so i purchased carrots, celery, veggie dip, turkey, juice, oil, and eggs, and brownie mix. then piper picked us up and took us back to 10 buick to unload her mattress (for storage as well), and then drove us to simon's apartment on bay state to drop off his groceries. simon and i watched the fysop 15 opening ceremonies with some of the sapa's. after it ended, i walked home with danielle and proceeded to organize the mess that was my stuff. it took my three and a half hours, but i'm mostly unpacked, and just need to fold the shirts and socks that are spread about the living room (they're drying). i'll do that as soon as i'm done here. i crawled into bed around 1:30 a.m. and easily fell asleep.

that was my day of moving and unpacking. and now i'm here in the student village ready for the school year. word.

i also think i've done enough babbling for a while....but i'll be back after session 8 and ofis this week/weekend. 7 days until the start of senior year. exciting.

hooray for a nearly pain-free day of moving.

-me : )

August 23, 2004

herb

so, i forgot to mention in the last post (or at least i think i forgot to mention) that i purchased a digital camera last week. it's a canon powershot a75, and its name is herb. danielle named him when he arrived last week friday at the office.

that's how i got the pictures from the summer league tournament. i'm really excited to have herb. i'll be able to document senior year much better. hooray for me (again).

okay, that's all i wanted to say in this post.

hooray for herb!

-me : )

summer league photos

i just posted the pictures i took at the summer league tournament this weekend. the ozone pilots came in 3/4 in the 4/3 division, which is awesome for the team. it was a successful summer for the pilots, and i can't believe it's all over now.

speaking of "over now", the summer is nearly over, and there's about 14 days left before the first day of classes. we'll welcome a new class of pilots, and a new semester of classes. the summer has gone by pretty quickly, but i'm not complaining.

it's time to move again; 6 days until the final one. i vacuumed the apartment, cleaned the bathroom, and took out the trash. not much to cleaning, but i feel that i accomplished something. hooray for me. theresa's stuff has arrived, so it's time for me to organize my stuff and get it ready to move out.

i think that's it for my random blog tonight. i guess i'll write more later, probably tomorrow at work while i'm trying to....work.

every beginning comes from some other beginning's end.

-me : )


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summer pilots 2004 (from l-r, top-bottom): laura, eitan, miller, holzer, kat, lindsey, jasper, piper, mike, kasman, rosie, molly, simon, steve, spoony, me, camille, spencer, and kris. missing: greytak, christina, benny, and dmitri Posted by Hello

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August 14, 2004

selfish

i was going to start this post with, "it's friday the 13th" but as i look at the clock on my computer, it's actually 12:06 a.m. saturday, august 14th. friday the 13th has come and gone and so has my week off from orientation. this summer, i decided not to go home during my week off because steve was here for the summer, and i wanted to work to make money for my ultimate expenses this fall.

i'm definitely sure that i didn't go home this week because steve is here. i decided that was the one and only reason i didn't go home while i was showering a few minutes ago. and then i realized i was being selfish....again. man, i'm really good at it. and at the same time, i think i'm doing things for others. how'd this reasoning come about? well....i'm going to do my best to piece it together, but the fact still remains the same, i didn't want to leave steve for a week when i asked him to come to boston for the summer. in my mind, that's just wrong. but, as i thought about this in the shower tonight, i left my family behind....again. lori's leaving for college in 11 days, brad is trying to figure out where he wants to apply to college, my grandparents are always wondering how i'm doing and what i'm up to, and i haven't even been a good friend to my friends back home.

i'm not sure if my family expected me to come home this summer, but it was probably a passing thought in each of their minds. and now that the week has come and gone, i was selfish and i should have gone home. just to make the transition for lori as easy as an older sister could make it. just to sit down and talk with brad about the college application process. just to have dinner with my grandparents and have them ask me about my summer in boston and my plans for the school year. just to sit down with my friends and hang out and do what we do best: talk. just to be home and in a place where i don't have to think about anything but being at home. but i didn't go, and it's another four months before i'll see the familiar house again. right now, it's one thing i regret doing, but maybe in a few months, i'll see it in a different light.

enough thinking about it. time to go with the flow. take control of me and do what i know i do best. i really should stop thinking about what others say; it really fucks with me. then again, i let it happen, so it's (once again) in my control. yups, it's time to stop writing and feeling sorry for myself. sleep should let my mind run wild with the thoughts and i should wake up in the morning ready for a new day. okay i'm out.

and on and on it goes.

-me : )